Brothers, pray for me!

pianoman · #1 12-08-2005

This coming Monday my wife and I are going to meet for counseling for the first time in three years. We have been married for 26 years and for 23 of those years I've been abusive. We've been separated for 3 years and I really, trully, love this beautiful woman. We have 8 children, 4 are grown and 4 are teenagers.

My prayer requests in this: I am afraid that my wife will ask for a divorce and if that happens, I don't think I will make through the night.

Three years ago I was treated for major depression and was suicidal. I am presently being medicated but my anxiety level is sky-rocketing. I am trying my darnest to stay out of the hospital for Christmas but I don't know if I can make it. I have begun to come up with suicidal plans and I have had to call on friends to stop the running thoughts.

In the Name of Christ, pray for me!

JHW · #2 12-08-2005

I have just prayed for you, and I hope things will get better

**Hank** · #3 12-08-2005

"My prayer requests in this: I am afraid that my wife will ask for a divorce and if that happens, I don't think I will make through the night."

I'll pray but you need to fix this first before you enter into counseling with her. You are providing yourself with your own wrecking ball.

Go talk to a professional. ASAP. We'll be praying while you do.

DragonJoe76 · #4 12-08-2005

I agree with Hank. If you're making your suicidal plans then you're setting yourself up for failure. Don't have a contingency plan (sp?) and don't worry about her asking for a divorce until it happens. The mere fact that she's going to therapy with you should show you that she wants to work on your problems, and why would she want to work on your problems if she ultimately didn't want to resolve them.

Surround yourself with Christian friends - as you do here - and get the help you need for all the aspects of your life.

I will join the band of brothers praying for you.

Jeremyt · #5 12-08-2005

Is it possible to get your real life first name. I like to pray ona first name basis for now I will pray using piano man God will know who I am talking about.

God Be with you brother. Just remember there are others out there that hurt like you. Do not feel like you are isolated in this.

God Bless

**Hank** · #6 12-08-2005

His name is Tom

**flipster** · #7 12-08-2005

Pianoman, here is some real straight talk: knock it off with the comments about what you plan to do if she askes for a divorce. Your depression goes way back in life, and it is high time you get to a counselor and tell him everything. And don't leave anything out. If the evening of the meeting, you are still that depressed, cancel it till you get some immediate help. I don't doubt your seriousness. Will you give us all a promise here that you won't hurt yourself until you get into some counseling? And tell the counselor how close these things are. Your brother in Christ, Flipster (as are all the other men here). God bless you. There are a lot of prayers for you here.

Jeremyt · #8 12-09-2005

Tom,
You have been on my heart this morning. I have been praying for you. Just know people love you, I may have never met you before but I feel your pain. Please seek help where you live locally. Go to a local church that your familiar with and talk with there pastor and prayer team.

I pray for blue skys for you brother. That your heart will open up wide and you would realize that you are more important to God then you think.

Peace Be with you brother and God Bless

IN prayer

Jeremy T

**sharky67** · #9 12-09-2005

Tom,

Prayers are being lifted up for you as I write this. God knows what you are going through and has promised that He will not allow anything into your life that you cannot handle. Be strong brother, put on the full armor of God that you may be able to resist the devil and the thoughts he is putting into your head. The victory is yours Tom, you just have to claim it. You will stand the tallest against all of these stresses when you are down on your knees. Just let go and let God. He is the source of life itself and is most certainly the answer for your situation, no matter how helpless it may feel. Regardless of how things turn out at counselling, know that God has your best interests in mind. This may include a reunion with your family, or it may mean a different direction. But He knows the plans He has for you. Plans to prosper you and not harm you. We will all bathe you in prayer and pray a hedge of protection around you. Just remember that God loves you and so do your Christian brothers here. Let us know how things turn out.

pianoman · #10 12-09-2005

Would you believe it? :clap:

My wife said I could go over to the family house for a visit after church this Sunday! I think we're going to bake some cookies! Thanks everyone for the words I needed to hear.

My pastor said I am "married" to God first then my wife. Knowing that maybe I can get through the night.